There Was Her


For some people “will you marry me”

Is not a virgin term that escapes from their lips.

It serves to be only the tip

Of the matter that leads to disaster

And they wonder why, you wonder if

“I love you” is just a script

That seems so easily to drip from their lips.

For some people there is no “one and only”

Forever only you will hold me

Type falsities.

Forever and always is just a trick tease

That speeds up your heartbeat

And then passes by

Just like a quick breeze.

And they wonder why, you wonder if

This love for you will also soon cease.

There is that reality that before you

There was her.

There was laughing and kissing

And lovemaking

That had his toes curling

And ears ringing

And it was her name he was singing

With praises so high.

Her shadow follows your every move

From the way you cook to the way you clean

To the words you say and

How your actions may seem

To be like hers

Or maybe nothing like hers

If it suits his mood.

This may be a good or bad thing

Depending on memories it may allude

To

Like the times he missed her so much

He could have cried

Or the way her hair fell in waves

Before it dried into

The strands of joy that would caress his face

At night

In the same bed

That he invites you to share with him.

And in the quiet moments

I get to thinking

And all the ways he used to love her, sinks in

To my brain, my heart

And I can’t stop, once I start.

He used to kiss her lips with a fever

Erased all doubt from her mind

And made her a believer

Of his words, his touches…

And the ring on her finger

A memory that still lingers

In the box that I found near the bed

Leftovers from two people unwed.

And he wonders why, I wonder if

An ending between us could occur

When I don’t have to look far to see

That before me, there was her.

(c) 2013

 

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Posted on May 28, 2013, in Love Out Loud and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. I’m so feeling this…I wonder the same things sometimes…it’s not insecurities its the unknown and fear of taking the risk. fear of if you and him will eventually cease to exist. its scary. but I’m brave enough to take the leap again for another chance at love.

    • Exactly! It’s not that we are insecure as females but sometimes we can’t help but think about who he loved before us and how much he loved her and despite all that love you are now sitting in her place. If it can happen to her then it can happen to you. But we have to try to put those thoughts to the side if we ever want to love fully.

  2. Interesting….. When you can post and it puts someone in a certain place that’s when you know it’s successful…. If I married half the hopefully awesome people I’ve considered, whoaaa nelly. One moment, onene romance, one heart, one decision. One regret, two outcomes: )

    • @ Renaissance. …well thank you! And this post could apply in other ways also. As a male, it could make you think about the other girl before her or it could put you in my shoes and make you consider the man that came before you.

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