Monthly Archives: July 2012

Your last breath… (In memory of H’Katherine and John)

Waves and tides are like the heartbeat of the ocean,

So the rivers, lakes and streams must be its bloodline.

How ironic is it, that you took your last breath among the waves.

They say we are made of dirt and so to dirt we shall return,

Yet are we not about 75% water and is it not water that must sustain us.

So if we are made of water, thus it is only right that to water we shall return

As you two did…

Death does not take only the dying.

Sometimes it takes the living, those very happy, those on the brink of their dreams, and yes, even those very young.

In life there are seasons

And everything does happen for a reason,

But it is only the living and the loved ones left behind

That can’t comprehend the “why.”

You two were loved beyond any words that could ever be expressed.

The church was standing room only.

Family and friends came from all over the state.

People sung songs, girls were bows in their hair in your remembrance, and memories were shared.

Your lives were short but your impact on others was strong.

You took your last breath among the waves

And you were buried below tear soaked flowers.

Best friends and cousins…together at the end…forever.

The fear of drowning is one of the most paralyzing fears in the human mind.

But I sometimes wonder, if after all the struggle

There’s a sense of peace at the end.

And I wonder if, before you closed your eyes forever,

The view was as beautiful as this…

RIP H’Katherine and John.

“All rivers, even the most dazzling, even those that catch the sun in their course…all rivers go down to the ocean and drown. And life awaits us, as the sea awaits the river.” – Simone Schwarz-Bart


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Motivational Speech to Myself…

Ksoranna…you need to get shit done today…and tomorrow…and the day after that!!!! You cannot sit around on your ass every day and eat sweets and read vampire romance novels and watch Korean Dramas and day dream about Jeremy Lin and sexy ass Korean men that you will never meet. And stop blogging…I mean seriously…you already have like 5 freaking blogs. And stop buying plants…you already have like 9 potted plants…pretty soon your balcony will look like a poor man’s jungle. Get your shit together woman!!! REMEMBER….

Wow…what an awesome motivational speaker I am to myself. I can’t believe that actually worked.


What the hell…this shit is too stressful…I can’t do this shit anymore…my brain hurts…I am just going to take a small break to clear my head so I can come back in 20 minutes and be more productive.

My “20 minute” break:

   damn my house is dirty…

OMG…I am sooo hungry…must eat… 

and then…. and then… 

and then…OMG…Jeremy Lin…

  and then OMG…I’m hungry again!!! 

and then dancing around while listening to BigBang…


and then watching Kdrama… 

…and then crying my eyes out because it was so sad 


Damn it! I’m exhausted and I need to go to sleep. Didn’t get any shit done today…again…for like the 5th day in a row.

Tomorrow I will try this method….I wonder if it will make a difference…or will I just watch Kdramas with my one eye…

She Let Go

The following words were forwarded to me by one of my best friends. Unfortunately, I don’t know who the original author is, so I can’t give credit where credit is due, but it seems like someone read my mind and decided to write out my thoughts for me. Everyone goes through a period in their lives, where they hold on to things…whether it’s a past love, past pain, past memories, past happiness… And everyone goes through another period in their lives, where they are trying to let go. Some people succeed and some people never really do… So this is for everyone out there still learning to let go and I hope it gives you that extra strength. Speaking from personal experience…letting go, really is the best gift you can give yourself. I haven’t looked back since and I can honestly say, this is the happiest I have been in a very long time!

Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of fear.

She let go of judgments. 

She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head.
… She let go of the committee of indecision within her.

She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons.
Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice.

She didn’t read a book on how to let go.
She just let go.
She let go of all the memories that held her back.

She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward.
She let go of the planning and all of the calculations

about how to do it just right.

She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it.
She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer.

She made no public announcement.

She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope.
She just let go.
She didn’t analyze whether she should let go.

She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.

She didn’t utter one word.
She just let go.
No one was around when it happened.

There was no applause or congratulations.
No one thanked her or praised her.

No one noticed a thing.
Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.
There was no effort.

There was no struggle. It wasn’t good. It wasn’t bad.
It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be.

A small smile came over her face.

A light breeze blew through her.
And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
Here’s to giving ourselves the gift of letting go…